Friday, August 6, 2010

Pulling myself up by my straps....

Where to start.....Life is getting back to normal, although I do ponder, "what is normal after all I've gone through"...I guess it's a "new normal".  The loss of this baby girl weighs heavy on my heart, daily, but I'm learning to refocus my energy and thoughts on other things.  I still find myself angry and bitter though - hoping time will change that.  Still TTC, won't ever be able to give up - anyone who knows me knows "giving up" is simply not in my nature!  Had two cycles of meds left; Femara, Gonal-F and Ovidrel...will use those up and then decide whether to order more or just continue natural - funny thing is that 2 of the 3 pregnancies were spontaneous...so who knows, maybe the meds are a moot point anyway. 

I've been working out everyday, even got Russ to go to Water Aerobics with me last night; we had a really good time too!!  The wedding plans are coming right along....I got my dress and I'm in love with it!!  I actually had to hide it though, Russ won't stop trying to peak!  I'm getting excited....but hoping I won't be able to drink at my wedding ;-)

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